sugar free... day 4

Oh my god.  Why do things have to be so difficult?

Why on earth can't the child (as she is now being referred to because I can not see past my own annoyance to even think of her name let alone say it) just eat something? Do something?  Use the bathroom?  Inhale air without it being a huge production?

Also, as wonderful as they smelled those baked potatoes I made for dinner?  Did nothing for me.  They were not made of sugar.  They certainly did not taste like cherry coke.

Every time I want a cherry coke I drink a glass of water, except the two times I had a glass of iced tea.  Do you have any idea how much time I've spent in the bathroom today?  I peed like 72 times.

Also, and this is very irritating, I think anytime I make up a number?  It has a 7 in it.  Now I know that 7 is my favorite number but really... do I have to put it in EVERYTHING?

When I had lunch with my best friend today I was so lethargic I couldn't even fight with her.  I didn't even make fun of her.

At all.

I'm having serious withdrawal symptoms too.  And I had a glass of orange juice today...  and I didn't put any booze in it.  I did it just because it was the only sweet thing in the house I could think of that I could have.  It's a good thing I didn't remember the jar of honey, I might have guzzled it like that fat little fucker, Pooh Bear.

I think I'm losing my mind.  This is worse than when I quit smoking... hopefully, it will be just as beneficial.  Excuse me now while I go hide in a hole, that will greatly decrease my chances of killing someone who smiles at me or happens to be drinking a soda in a 10 mile radius.