is it noticeable?

Can you tell? You'd tell me if you could tell right? Tell what? That I am oh. so. tired of remodeling my bathroom.I am so over it and I am afraid it's going to find out. I really want to tell it the truth, that it's messy and disgusting and I am upset with it because it isn't there for ME in the middle of the night when I need to pee.But then I haven't exactly been there for it either. I mean on Sunday I did buy it some pretty things, but it didn't even bother to put them on for me. So what did I do? Instead of helping it I sat down and had champagne and tiki drinks in the other room. I closed the hall door so it wouldn't hear my laughter, but I think it knew.Then yesterday when I should have been in there tearing down the last of the old dry wall that's keeping me from putting up it's shiny new surround I... well it's too horrible really... I did laundry and read blogs the entire day... I know, I should have been there.It's just that even now when I look in my living room I see its junk all over the place. Tile, a toilet, sink, hardware, it can't even keep its stuff put away!Should I go through with this even though I can't feel the love? Am I being unfair to my bathroom? I can't lie and say "it's not you, it's me" because there is obviously nothing wrong with me, I'm amazing (really I am). It would know I was lying.I guess I just need to suck it up and be the bigger person. Maybe if I just throw myself into it and work really hard I can change my bathroom. Maybe I can make it be what I want. Maybe if I try hard enough it will be there for me... at 3 AM.




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People, it looks like

Mr. Fabulous aka Dear Fabby will answer my letter tomorrow, I know whatever he says will ease my mind considerably so go check it out.
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I've been trying to pull together my 101 things about me (me me). It used to be over on the side bar but it seemed far too cluttered there so I gave it its own space... you can check it out on my side bar by clicking "my 101 things"...